Once you’re on to something you are going. There is nothing like that. Priests in a zen bowl have been longing for that more than what you think nirvana is. It is in the park. There are people with guitars playing songs that you like to hear. Which is rare and you know it. That they’re playing songs you like to hear. There’s an older woman who’s descended from the magic people who were here before unmagic people came here and then made a mess of everything. I am 16 and I'm looking at her and she’s looking at my halo and she takes it off of me because she says I have no right to have it. I used to think that she was better than me but I know now she is just the same as me. She is angry and she’s mean and it makes me feel like shit. I have been like that. I am used to the unmagic people making me feel crappy, but I thought the ones descended from the magic people wouldn't do that. Just because you are descended from somebody doesn't make you be like them, whether they were awesome or were shit. I thought that she was awesome just because of where she came from. But she is her own damn thing. That will happen lots. I will see that lots. I will think the bad ones are the good ones and the good ones are the bad ones. I can be mistaken. Anybody can be mean and stupid. Me too. I know that I can be that too. I have been that too. I know shame. It might be the only saving grace. I'm not shameless. I like that show. There is liberty and loving for all of their dysfunction.
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