Praised be something. 1

I can keep on going. I can cut it short. I can publish part of it and leave the rest of it somewhere for somebody. They will look for it. It will be a thing. When they find it it will be both glad and sad tidings. It was looking for it that brought hope to them. Competition wasn’t friendly. Then it was. Then again it wasn’t. Then again it was. Then there wasn’t any competition. It was cheerfully a disassociation for them. They considered whether they should intervene. Was her paranoia theirs or hers. Did she leave a will. It was not her destination. She was wanting to be wanted. Then it was too late. That’s the letter ruling definitely with a wooden one. You could smell the pine. She was sitting up in the box. She was getting out of the box. They were all dumbfounded. She was not a mystery or monster but her blood was running and she felt it for a while. It was all inside and she was outside of the box where she always had been.

What is growing in the garden of that suffering?

It is always different. Until it’s too much being seemingly the same, you don’t, maybe you don’t know the value of it being like it's being different. Being how it's being seemingly, is interesting. Why is it being how you’re feeling seeing thinking it is being. Are you being feeling seeing thinking it's that way. Is there something someone somehow making you be being how you’re feeling seeing thinking it as being seemingly the way you feel it see it think it’s being?

Everybody’s working more. Everybody’s being someone knowing that they must be working more. Therefore there are many who are working less. Therefore there is less of it to do for everyone who now must be the someone who is always much more always doing it.

There are many missing out on it.

It is always being doing what it’s doing making everybody feel some way about it all. Is there any way of being how you’d rather like to be. Is there any way of knowing how it is the way that something someone’s somehow making everybody be some way and just say no to it or just say yes to how you’re going and you’re doing in your own way irregardless of the way that everything is moving trying to be taking you along with it, like a mighty river torrent.

Always there are consequences. Always there are methods. Always there is planning being done and consulting going on for anybody who can maybe be someone who’s doing what they have to do, the thing that is expected of them, doing following and flowing with the mighty river torrent while they’re also doing, really, something else that matters more to them.

But sh it is a secret, up until it catches on and then they can do that instead. Although mostly it is just a thing they do that keeps them from the mighty river’s torrent dragging them into the undertow and drowning them. It’s the thing that keeps them going: going how they’re able to be going when it isn’t how the way that they’re expected to be going. Not unless they’re wanting to be left alone, left out.

Some do want to be left out. Some do not.

There always can be suffering. Even that is working more now than it ever has been working. It is having to be working and there isn’t ever going to be enough of any of it that is needing to be working, working. Everybody has to work and there isn’t enough work and it’s going to be like that and so of course there is a lot of suffering.

Suffering is making something grow. What is growing in the garden of that suffering?

Sunset Spanish Banks

It's the flowing of awareness and attention. You are knowing you are you. You are thinking you are thinking. See the way you think and feel. When you're in it and you do not pay attention to your being in it. When you think about it afterwards. When you're planning for it. When you're trying to control it. When you’re cultivating something. When you follow. When you're led. When you're leading you. When you don't resist. The sounds. Where your feelings your attention goes. When to manage do and don't. Hitherto economy of harm.

Sometimes you can do something. Sometimes it is good. There is learning and development. There's enjoyment. There is making something stronger. There is doing something better and enjoying it more fully. There is never any way that you are not involved in some way. There can be an evolution. There can be a word that works for you.

There can be a way of responding that is automatic. You like it or you don't. You can see the way that someone is — and it's not about behaviour. It is sort of is the thing they do, but it's not the emphasis.

People do have will and interest. People are compelled.

Sometimes people do some things and you look at them. You don't really care about the things that they are doing. It is just an opportunity to look at them. When they are distracted and they are not looking at themselves, you can sometimes see them in a special sort of way. You could say that is pure or essential, but that also is confusing. Words have so much meaning sometimes and they sometimes don't have any.

When you look at someone for a short time it is different from when you look at them a long time. Some are looking for you, some are not. Some don't want to see you and some do. Some don't want you looking at them and some do. When their wanting is a part of it, one way or the other, then it makes it hard to see them in a special sort of way, like you do when they don't know you are looking at them. If you want to understand the way that people are, then you have to look at them. There are places where it is acceptable and places where it's not.